17+ years ago I started actively maintaining online profiles of many types – from anonymous forum moderation, to an imaginary corporate community management persona, to enterprise administration + obviously quite a few instances where I networked + micro/macro blogged using my true identity.
For the last 3 years I took a hiatus from moderation to instead half-write (+ yet never actually publish, it seems) hundreds of blog posts.
This approach isn’t particularly productive + in hindsight, could betray a lack of confidence to be my real self online.
Of course, even one’s concept of “real self” is susceptible to metamorphosis, something I do notice when stumbling across old Twitter bios, website “about me” pages + blog posts.
It’s been easy to let fear of embarrassment + the excuse of being too time poor to polish a post hold me back from blogging. Recently though, a tragedy changed the way I view the brave public sharing of thoughts.
Early 2017 brought the unexpected + heartbreaking loss of a special friend I thought the world of. I knew her in the “real world” plus in her online spaces, both public + private.
Being able to see her words, read her thoughts, scroll through the photo art she created, to laugh at her jokes + the memes she shared has been hugely comforting, even as the loss still feels so raw.
It impressed upon me how the thought patterns of humans are unique + precious, no matter what the topic.
I believe an authentic digital legacy can become a treasure, creating good “memories” for both ourselves + others to look back on.
As a wife + as a mother to two very special girls, I also now feel a responsibility to document my true values, in case my mortal coil ends sooner than expected.
So, to that end, I commit to *finishing + publishing* blog posts throughout 2017, no matter how imperfect or unpolished. Here’s to a degree of digital immortality!